Something Personal...
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FINDING A LOVING CREATOR
I knew I was always separated from God, always knew it, but it was really during my highest periods of fame in the public eye that I really became aware of it….I began to sense deeply that there was something missing but was so busy with 'Iife' I'd keep pushing the aching aside and instead would replace it with various ways to fill the void like work, alcohol, relationships, shopping fits, more work, more alcohol, more more more, .... but the gnawing emptiness inside wasn't leaving me and as I looked around me I saw superficial, surface and wanting. The industry I was in, was lurching into an ever deepening pit of self preservation at the expense of losing its dignity and honesty, and money and lust for power, was its god..., that’s when I truly began searching for answers. I know deep down that everyone eventually comes to ask those questions... Why am I here? Where am I going and why? Why’s the world such a mess? Why the pain? And where shall it all end type questions...
And so I started. I sought out almost every known spiritual source from buddhism, ecologist-ics, I read indian guru’s books, Louise Hay material, I practiced new age arts, read many eastern philosophies, bought crystals and did seminars... but I never once experienced the presence or the true peace of God, neither did I have reassurance for my questions...or peace... I felt sad inside and lonely, but on the outside I hid behind a smile.
I finally arrived to my marriage failing… and I was truly ashamed, insecurity crowded around me, and then guilt set in. I tried to rally but was out of my depth in lawyers and accountants and men in suits, who can I trust I was asking myself over and over?
Who do you trust?
Sadly, over time I became sick. With panic attacks, fear my companion, It felt crazy and I felt like a freak.. all that the world and its establishment had asked of me I had achieved…financial security, recognition, career achievements, but there was no peace or satisfaction, rather confusion and unanswered questions. Sick, I was unable to leave my home, or bed, and I remembered one evening asking my dear mum, if we had a Bible…
I never knew anything much about the Christian faith, had heard little about Jesus only as a child, and remembered thinking, well, I have exhausted everywhere else in my search for Truth, and in the entire journey had never experienced the presence of God. That night, in absolute desperation, I opened the Holy Bible.. this is the part of my story where I just say, 'Lord, if I'm ever doing interviews, what should I say?' People are going to say what's she on y'know! , nevertheless, it's what happened. I can recall an extraordinary experience after I lay the book down, something like a breeze.., a warm peace flooded through my body, lasting minutes... I lay totally in a gorgeous peace... sincerely..,I knew I had had a God Encounter, and I finally knew my answers were to be connected within that book somehow.
This new Album then, has come though a story, a true story of searching, and loss, wonder and faith. My christian life began only nine years ago, but what an amazing & exciting 9 years. I asked the Lord to take me and make me His, to clean me and forgive me of all the mistakes I’d made, to teach me & change me, I love Him and I am His, I have chosen to devote my life to God for my faith defines who I am.
..... All the songs I have written were inspired by conversations I have had through prayer, or scriptures, life situations, precious family and friendships, the good times and the bad,..The title track of the album , ‘Running Back to You’...is taken from ‘The Prodigal Son’ story... It’s kinda my story, I was the prodigal son/daughter, and the world had come upon me with all it’s attractions, distractions and deceptions. It was sucking me in..., I thought I was in control, but I realised I was being controlled.... and it wasn’t until I stopped that I found peace and purpose and meaning..., I found a greater love.... I really do want to live in a way that will hopefully legitimize the message of Christ.. and share the love of God, The Father, has for us all as we begin to come home. Nobody is left out of God’s Kingdom, not one; everyone has something to offer to another, absolutely everyone.
He has a plan for you, and me and it is perfect because He is perfect. And you and I were never meant to live this life alone or separate from His Loving Hand. He rocks, He reigns He rules!
Father, why so many Crying?...
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Why so Many Crying? - Turn this Way
My heart speaks
For heart thoughts are the best, the best for you.., And only the best for you, for you…
Father, why was Christ chosen? - To lay down his life
Oh, Father, Father…, Why’d He give this gift for me? - Salvation, salvation
Then why have we forgot His love
Never, ever, ever Ending…, Love
Oh, Father, Father
Why so many crying - Humanity’s just stopped listening to me
Oh, help us Father.., What’s happening is prophesied - Child I’m crying, I’m crying…
Father, I see terror and destructions, guns n’ drugs; corporate corruption
No one’s listening just resisting u, injustice keeps on winning through
Too busy in the lie/ Won’t you tell me why
We’re caught up in the me, myself and I
There’s No respect, no morality....TV’s soaked in sensuality…
There’s no excuse for lusts abuse...
That’s why my heart speaks for the truth and these are just some signs of the times…
Yazz - talking about tracks, today's world and God
A lot of people I have met that have talked to me about God, tend to share their feelings and opinions as though God had none.., they view the problems and sufferings that are happening in this world as His fault, blaming Him for negligence. If that’s the case, and God is negligent, should that not make us aware of our own involvement in this world and of it’s pain and sufferings?
I do not agree that God is negligent, how can I when we all encounter miracles daily.., the colour - the glorious colour of creation, the whisper of wind, the cherished laugh of a child, the creation of the human being..., Life attacks us and we can become buried under a sea of confusion, despair and forget to see the everyday extraordinaries that surround us..,
Upon getting to know the Father’s heart through His word, I have come to recognise, a very loving, caring and sacrificial, Holy, Just and Faithful Father.., Who feels and weeps and grieves alongside all of us, and has burst into this world through his son Jesus,. I believe that when God sent his son to die for us it was precisely because His love and heart for the world was so immense and desperate that he was willing to sacrifice His son.., His Only Son The world view as I understand, is the opposite, don’t make any sacrifices for anyone - achieve more for yourself, work harder for yourself, and you are loved because your car is right, your child is bright, your god is cool, your perfume image fits, your teeth are right, your job position is recognised, your status fits, you are famous, you are the right size, you look great, you’re in control.., The worlds constant magnetic pull is towards you and safe-guarding yourself. Meanwhile God says I love you despite all your weaknesses, despite all your failures. The world seems to hold a reward and punishment view, if you don’t fit in your punished..., God’s love is not based upon that.., God’s love includes, not excludes.., It is for you, not against you.., You can't earn it, or buy it, or achieve it.., God simply is love and it is constant.., we could never be good enough to deserve such love, it is a gift given through a choice, a choice for Christ. Christ is the face of God’s love, Christ is the name of God’s love..,
Why was Christ Chosen?...
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HOW TO BELIEVE IN JESUS
Anyone who trusts in Him shall never be put to shame. Romans; 9; verse 11
Where do you stand?..are you standing?!.... I came into the love of God limping...most people do...perhaps because its easier to get down on your knees when your a little lower...…
I Believe that when Jesus, the Son of God died…
Your world and mine changed forever. He came here for a purpose, and He fulfilled it.
What purpose?
HE came to save you and me from ourselves
What does that mean?
It means He came here to die and to die an extreme, punishing, and yet new life giving, prophesy fulfilling, death…
Why? …
Imagine you can see a great divide and on one side is yourself and on the other side is GOD,and heaven and the reason there is a divide is because of what has come between you and God, and that is called sin; that's all the stuff that misses the mark for God, and its all there accumulated in your heart.
And looking around, you see that there’s no bridge to get across to the other side, just a massive divide, but deep in your innermost being you hope that there’s a way over…. a way so that you could no longer be separated from your heavenly Father.
Well, there is a way across, only one way, and that way is through Jesus Christ, His Son. He is the blessed bridge that crosses the chasm, it has been done and it has been done for you and for me and for anyone who believes in Jesus.
Why, His sacrifice?
A sacrifice had to be made, in order for us to go free, a price had to be paid. Remember God is a Holy God, He cannot allow sin to enter His presence because He is too Glorious and Holy, same with heaven. God planned the way of bridging that gap, to have a sacrifice made for your life and mine..,because of Love. When Jesus Christ died on the Cross and rose from the grave, He paid the penalty for your sins and mine. The BIBLE says... "He personally carried the load of our sins in his own body when he died on the cross..." 1 Peter 2:24
To be COMPLETELY freed from all our guilt and shame our accumulated sins…stuff we regretted doing, words we’ve regretted saying, hurts that we’ve carried and acts we’ve regretted , those things that have kept us separated from GOD well, Jesus came to make that change. He came to put you and me back together with our Father, God.
Why?
Simple, BECAUSE GOD LOVES, IS LOVE, GIVES LOVE.
His Words say:
God so LOVED the world that He gave His One and Only Son, that who ever believes in Him, will never perish but have a life everlasting.. John;3; verse 16. And Only Jesus Christ could make that a reality.
Why Jesus?
Because Jesus was and is the Son of God, completely pure, completely clean, completely holy and WITHOUT sin for He was God in human form. He came and humbled Himself, bursting into this world to show such a wondrous love, in a way that we just can’t do, Jesus loves completely and wholly unconditionally, beautifully, and indiscriminately. And He Loves You.
I know it because I personally have experienced its result… as have thousands before me,
HE IS and always will be MAGNIFICENT.
How can I put my trust into Jesus.?
“Look at me. I stand at the door. I knock. If you hear me call and open the door, I'll come right in and sit down to supper with you. Conquerors will sit alongside me at the head table, just as I, having conquered, took the place of honor at the side of my Father. That's my gift to the conquerors! Rev 3;20 . The message bible
Prayer of Salvation - Our First Real Conversation With God
The "prayer of salvation" is the most important prayer we'll ever pray. When we're ready to become a Christian, we're ready to have our first real conversation with God, and these are its components:
- We acknowledge that Jesus Christ is God; that He came to earth as a man in order to live the sinless life that we cannot live; that He died in our place, so that we would not have to pay the penalty we deserve.
- We confess our past life of sin -- living for ourselves and not obeying God.
- We admit we are ready to trust Jesus Christ as our Saviour and Lord.
- We ask Jesus to come into our heart, take up residence there, and begin living through us.
So, when we pray, asking God for the gift of salvation, we're exercising our free will to acknowledge that we believe in Him
That demonstration of faith pleases God, because we have freely chosen to know Him.
Prayer of Salvation - When we pray the prayer of salvation, we're admitting that we've sinned. As the Bible says of everyone, save Christ alone: "For all have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God." (Romans 3:23)
Prayer of Salvation
Do you agree with everything you have read so far? If you do, don't wait a moment longer to start your new life in Jesus Christ. Pray this with us:
• " Father, I know that I have broken your ways and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."
Prayer of Salvation - I've Prayed It! Now What?
If you've prayed this prayer of salvation with true conviction and heart, you are now a follower of Jesus. This is a fact, whether or not you feel any different. Religious systems may have led you to believe that you should feel something - a warm glow, a tingle, or some other mystical experience. The fact is, you may, or you may not. If you have prayed the prayer of salvation and meant it, you are now a follower of Jesus. The Bible tells us that your eternal salvation is secure! "that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved." (Romans 10:9)
Welcome to the family of God! I really encourage you to find a local church, ask for a bible and begin to grow in the knowledge of and family of God and talk to someone about the decision you have made! Please contact us for any help.
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